What does it mean to be self-centered or self-serving as AA describes the behaviors of an addict? The following is a snapshot inside the mind of an alcoholic.

“Me, Me, Me, Me, Me,” I am warming up because this song is about me. Everything is about me. In discussions I want to be the alpha male. I am always throwing my opinions around like nickels at a Las Vegas slot machine. I don’t want others to see who I really am, so I project out onto everyone else.

If it does not fit my agenda or isn’t what I think it should be, it must be wrong. Driving off my opinions only. The universe revolves around me. Everything is about me. If not, I wonder why. And I try to direct it back to me. All the time. It becomes a very boring conversation.

What is the origin of these obsessive thoughts? Insecurities. If they really knew who I was, they would not like me. I have to have a controlled environment. I have to be in charge…don’t do well with others and in sharing another’s ideas. I am the center of the universe operating from that idea.

These are the distortions of mental-emotional inadequacies. The neuroses of the mind can take over and there is a lack of social intelligence.

This is what happens when the trauma is not healed or addressed. The price to pay is heavy when you cannot be authentic, and you are driven by a hundred forms of fear and self-pity. This will lead to depression, anxiety, conflicts, anger, self-pity, and resentment. And unfortunately, you are probably looking for that next thrill or escape. from yourself.